I feel pretty bad about the whole thing.
I may have to resign myself to living with the condition and making the best of whatever is left of my life. That may well involve diminishing T levels. I could only afford TRT if I won the lottery.
Hopefully, I will get referred to a urologist. I'll see what he has to say, and then I might have the option of surgery or maybe embolization.
Peak T, in order to get a fair result from the T blood test (which I hope to get done next week), I thought it would make sense to get a normal night's sleep. At present, I am getting up at around 2pm and going to bed at around 4am. For the T test, I'd like to go to sleep at or before 12 midnight and get up at 815am or so in order to go and get the blood test at 9am (as the centre does not open 'til 9am). Would it affect the T test results if I'd taken a Melatonin tablet the night before or even the preceding few nights before? I may or may not need the tablet to get to sleep but it is quite likely that I will lie worrying about not sleeping, knowing I need a good night's sleep to get a fair T test result...
Part of me is actually hoping for a disappointing T result, if only to confirm that there is justification for feeling crap and to prove that small testicles because of V is causing problems, and this might prompt the GP to refer me. I'd be surprised if my results were about 500, but we shall see next week. Of course, it would be nice to see healthy levels, but I can't expect they will be.