Topicals are off the table for me having two daughters. My wife is ok with HRT, though the other day she watched me shoot cypionate, she said - poor you. Sticking this 1 inch big-ass needle in your leg is somewhat scary. Apparently she made her peace with it. She views it no differently from diabetic people shooting insulin. I am different story though. I still cannot believe this horrifying crap happened to me. Until the age of 40 I did not have concerns, and visited doctors only when I got strep throat. I did not even do physicals. And it all changed literally overnight, now I am struggling to regain my life back, which was taken away so swiftly.
Sometimes I think - what would I do differently if I knew years ago that my testosterone is deficient? Probably the doctor will say - your T is low. So what? I do not feel very badly, considering other circumstances. Do I have a gyno? Yes, but it was going on for probably about 12-14 years, I got used to it - it probably comes from overeating. Do I have excess weight? Sure, but it probably comes from eating a lot, lack of physical activity. Do I have sleep problems? Sure, but they probably come from a toddler who made my life a living hell in the last 5 years.
I had no idea it comes from a dangerous hormone deficiency. But what would I do differently if I knew? Would I go on a diet? Probably. Would I be physically active? Yes. Would I go on hormone replacement back then? Well, I am not so sure. My sex life was in good shape until it hit hard. So, going on a T therapy, risking to wreck it all, with uncertain outcome - I probably would not do it back then. But it seems that once you are on this downward pointing trajectory - you can delay the therapy, but probably you will not escape it. Like my first urologist said - whatever you do, you will come see me again. It may happen in a year or in 10 years, but you will need T replacement eventually.