Your story is one of the most incredible on here. And what is interesting about it is that it emphasizes something that no one can understand until they've gone through it: the misery of being low testosterone. It is truly miserable and life changing. I've always said it turns you into a functioning zombie.
By the way, you wrote that I advised your wife to leave you. Now I would be absolutely shocked if I said anything like that. Maybe I had a brain outage, but here is what I remember: you absolutely did not want to change - at one point of course - and did not want to go in for help. That's what I was hearing. So I told your wife to take care of herself. Essentially I was telling her to get ready for a rocky ride. We've all had a loved one who was sick and just would not take care of themselves. What very often happens is that they drag the health down of everyone around them and that's not a good thing of course.
Now that leads to my question: what made you finally want to change? What finally got you into the door of the doc?
I'm asking that, because, to be honest, I'm one of the those annoying overachieving self-improvement kind of guys. I want to always make myself bigger, faster, better, stronger, etc. But I find so many men just give up. If you can give a little insight here, it might really help me when I run across that situation in the future.