Well now im feeling low all of a suddenm which is a clear high E2 symptom for me since I do not get these lows as much with low T--its mostly really bad anxiety (with tingling, nausea, head pressure, etc). I don't know if I will be able to wait this out for like 3 weeks with all this school stuff coming up. I have to force myself to study and do things and its taken a toll on my academics where I am basically failing classes. Now I am constantly ruminating about this whole imbalance stuff and wallowing in a pit of self-pity over what if my dreams get ruined+ keep ruminating over the fact that every second being in this anxiety or low state = every second wasted in college, etc all negative thoughts.
And ruminating about how my friends are getting so ahead in their life while im stuck. Yes objectively, I shouldn't be comparing myself to others but this happens at a subconscious level where I see everyone else having the time of their lives in college with girls, internships, parties, etc. This imbalance is really tough for me since even before all of this I would be considered a pessimistic person and this just amplifies all of it and adds to the stress. And all the immense pressure I am putting on myself to get this stuff sorted out ASAP with all the time limits. Then somehow it doesn't get sorted in this "time limit" I put which leads to more anxiety.
I think I am going to have to ask for an AI to speed this up and probably get an early blood test done. Sometimes I ask my psychiatrist if I should get on a med like buspar or neurontin but I always get the response no its not necessary at this point.