Thanks for the input,
Maybe that is why my mood has been all over the place. I was/am hoping that 25mg was just not enough to keep my T high enough. I perhaps could convince my gp to put me on testosterone, but I think he would rather leave that up to the urologist. I could have gotten in with the urologist on 11/30, but I'll be out of town for work. My current appointment is 12/7, but I may have to postpone that as well because of work. Maybe I will ask to get on the cancelation list.
The problem right now is that I have a number of big stressors all working at the same time. It has gotten too confusing to tell what is messing with my mood. I have never been so stressed out in my life. Sorry to be so negative, but the smallest of tasks has become overwhelming. I'm just trying to tread water now, my world seems to be crashing around me.
I can't give up though, I have too many people depending on me. I will focus my little energy on what really matters the most. Less important things will have to wait. Hopefully the clomid will continue to work and work better. If not, I'll call the gp to work something else out. There are certainly glimmers of hope though. On Friday I really felt good at work. I felt like I was accomplishing something, and I felt positive. I even started thinking about the future and things I would like to do.
I will keep on striving...