I can sleep 8 hours a night now solid and don't feel tired, I can concentrate better, not as depressed or angry, have way more energy during the day, the libido seems to have finally come around (although that took quitting Internet pornography) and most importantly I'm not having another pulmonary embolism lol. I really feel like a new person.
But I know that I have to keep taking these shots for the rest of my life if I want to continue to have the benefits.
True unless they come up with some miracle solution to jumpstart secondary folks. I don't think they will, though, as my guess is that it comes from actual damage that they do not understand het.
I don't want to damage my body and I'm worried about the HPTA and testes.
What damage are you worried about? I don't know of any evidence that it damages any of this. Yes, it shuts down some testicular production, but in general it doesn't shut it down completely. Now I don't have crystal ball to tell you that there won't be any issues discovered with HRT down the road. But I do not of any evidence regarding "HPTA damage". If you know of something, let us know.
Again, the big concern was prostate cancer and that is looking very positive to date imo. Talk to your doc though...
so I guess my balls aren't going to shrivel into raisins and make me impotent.
If you raise the T pretty high, you'll get some shrinkage. But saying they are going to "turn into raisins" is a gross exaggeration imo. Do you really think most women care if your boys shrink a little if your libido is high, you are rock hard and your mood is elevated from abundant testosterone?
In my opinion, the HCG is for men to feel good about themselves. I seriously doubt that women could care. Seriously, if you met a woman who was a B+ cup instead of a C- cup but she was great in bed with high libido and mood, would you care?