I've been researching and lurking around different forums for months trying to get an understanding of all of this stuff but hoping I can get some feedback. I'm sorry if this is too long of a story.
In my mid 20s I began doing weight lifting/bodybuilding type training but in an unhealthy way. Bulked too much and started having major digestive issues and anxiety issues.
Long story short, I was scared into cleaning up my diet and lost extra fat after finding out I was on my way to being diabetic. Diagnosed as "pre diabetic " I then worked hard to say lean and live a healthy life.
All my symptoms improved except my sex drive started to get lower and lower after age 27.( I'm 30 now).
At 27 I did some labs, one being total T. It came back as 490ng/dl.
I thought ok fine, normal range, not exactly high but maybe I could boost it with diet, supplements and exercise.
After two more years of various supplements I realized that although my energy levels are decent, my motivation for life was way down compared to before. I have this "dullness" feeling towards everything. Not depressed, not happy, just dull and apathetic. Nothing is no longer exciting.
I used to love to read book after book on stuff that interests me and now I can't even concentrate or think clearly as I used to. My sex drive isn't so great. I can still get the job done, but I don't look forward to it like I used to in my early 20s. It's almost like work now. My social anxiety at work got a little worse too. I try to avoid people that I don't know too well, especially the opposite sex. I get too nervous. I wasn't this bad before.
So I decided to go to a local anti aging clinic, they tested my testoserone and my TT was 438 and free T 8.53 I believe. I was disappointed that all my efforts only led to an even lower number.
This place is pretty liberal in giving out testoserone injections and said I was barely low enough to be treated. After doing more research, I got nervous and decided not go through with the TRT due to being too young and afraid of side effects..
So I began researching more supplements and trying to up my T naturally. I continued to feel like crap for the most part, until one day after a good weight lifting session I suddenly felt slightly better. My libido returned some, I felt less anxious , more clear thinking, just better mood all around. I thought maybe my testoserone shot up some? The next day I got re tested and sure enough my number came back to around 520 ng/dl. However that feeling lasted only a few days.
So my real questions are: could it be that going from the 400s to the 500s be THAT big a difference?
I've seen charts on different websites that say someone in the 400s has the levels of an average 70 or 80 year old? Should that concern me?
I've also read that head injuries could lead to lower T levels? I had hit my head hard about three years ago close to around the time that I noticed my sex drive start to fade away.
Also, not all the low T symptoms fit my situation. I don't feel weak in the gym, I gain strength and progress decently. My ability to put on muscle mass is partically genetic as I've always been that way. And of course, my testoserone isn't super low, just not optimal, would that be right?